i guess it's worst than the first time i found out.

maybe because at the time i was too young to understand. but right now, i'm old enough to understand part of the world? life is not just about that person itself but it involves everyone who knows you.

Thank you Lord for teaching me so much. i haven't been myself since last Friday and it's really hard for me to come to reality. thinking about so many things, so many questions in my head. i guess those questions will still stay in my head unanswered. nobody will know the truth. haven't interact much with anyone these few days.

i won't guarantee that i'll be fine by tmr. but i'll pull myself up again slowly.

goodnight.