im sry i cant be that person everyone expects me to be.

i tried. i really did. but what else can i do?

my character has always been like this.

do you knw how much i've struggled?

of course i believe that whatever i feel, whatever i think is matured to a certain point.

but i can say that the way i think is beyond my age

well, at least i feel that way.

i definitely can put myself into ppl's shoe and think from their point.

but whatever i do, there's always something there to make everyone feel differently.

how long more can i tolerate? how long?

all i can do is just to say "im fine."